Thursday, August 24, 2006
Many things tat happened in this world,tat might make a person sad...
But those feelings to most ppl,is jus a short-term one...
it jus tak a few daes for ppl to forget and lead life as usual...
its only when it happen to u,tat it will leave a scar in u,tat u will probably regret and gg to influence ur wae of life...
i hav no ideas why these daes hav been so miserable for me,
i tried to cherish every moment,but seems lik im PRETENDING to cherish it...
honestly,i hav totally lost my interest in studies...
wad's worse is when prelims r coming,followed by Os...and im leaving the skol...
wad's realli important to me?achievements?...
Achievements without great fren to share wif is so meaningless...i jus feel tat...im jus struggling each dae...i played soccer,but i felt lik im venting all my unhappiness on the ball...for tat...i injured my own leg...my knuckles r swollen...i noe all those r so silly,but it makes me feel better?...mayb those pains will numb my pain in me...i nv believe and nv ever tot tat,dere is gg to b such a moment in my life...everyone's seemed so bz wif their lives...im only noticed when fren needs me...i was alwaes there for them...care for them,ask bout them,cherishing them,makin them happie when they r down,encourage them when they r demotivated n pull them out of the pit when they r falling...those were taken for granted...all those simply took so much of my time and efforts...i didnt ask for any returns...wad i realise is,its reali not easy to care for a single person...i ask myself..den how bout me?...though i didnt ask for returns,but isnt it fair tat im treated at least...at the very least...treated fairly the same wae round?...haiis...i nv blame them...not a single one...to me...i alwaes feel so fortunate to noe every single unique one of them,jus tat...probably they don think the same wae i felt...However,i don deny tat totally tat dere was no one dere for me...but wad was the sad thing was,those whom u actually cared for...so much...tat u will jus jump off the building to exchange his life...tat he actually don even treat u as a frenx...worse still...simply,nobody...i don noe wad i can do...i cant force them to do things they don wan,and wad if it is so,it becomes so meaningless...haiis...lik i sae,i jus felt to depressed,and totally not in the mood to study at all...and tat realli stress me out!...totally freak out!...my expectations were high,yet i was not doing a thing to achieve it...the feeling of anxious and terrified...as ppl were all preparing for their Os...i wonder wad the hell im doing...wad's wrong wif me?...haiis...sometimes,the feelings in u jus cant b put in words...i could jus sae,its nth gd...*Im so confused...its lik im so lost...realli...i don noe realli...wad makes a person full of joy and happiness...to feel dis wae?...wad is wrong?...m i lack motivation?frenx?...or?...haiis...sometimes i realli tot...wad m i doing in this world?It lik a waste,i shld hav exchange my life for somebody else...whu deserve more to stay in this world...haiis...-sigh-*
♥hanxiang
8/24/2006 06:11:00 PM
