also,shihong...i find tat...the relationship wif him has slightly dirften off...but why?...haix...i understood his limitations...i hope he understand...to me,a sensible guy...i neednt realli hav to worry bout him lorx...aniwae,i reali hope i wont hav to quarrel wif him cox aft all its not worth it...im deeply sorrie if i said anithin unpleasant todae...
i felt oso...tat the past and present..so different...haix...fren arnd changes their frenx so frequently...i feel so redundent...and not needed...wadever it is...its jus so different liaox lorx...tats jus my personal feelings...probably for u ppl...everythings seem normal and gd for u...wadever it is...jus a very sour feelings...jus tat i kept it to myself...so suffering...sigh
i have also been thinking...when she used to love me...probably i didnt cherish...but bcox at tat time there was lik no chemistry...and now...i felt a little...she is still so nice towards me...but everything is jus too late...haix...i suddenly...felt the...strength and...those "powerful" feelings about her...and dis question prompted me..."shld i or shld i not?"...haix...realli so confused..."is she the one i realli love?or jus a replacement?"...wad izzit?...
wif all these...i felt so sux...and so...sour...wif these so called "problems tat i faced"...it might seems nth...but to me,it means alot...alot more than any human being can imagine...haix...i don noe wad to do...i need ppl to care,love and to tok to...haixSIGH):