Friday, July 28, 2006
sec2s confidence camp...they mux b havin great time n fun dere...gd for them ba...
happie for them lorx...hmm...yupp...they coming back tomo le...
ya..so boring todae...go to skol alone lorx...used to b wif zhengli...
aniwae,dae sux wif mr p.chua comin to me in the morning to ask me to look for danapal...
sianx lorx...aiya..so look for her le lorx...everything okay liaox lorx...
finally settled liaox lorx...aiya oso good lorx...hmm...
aniwae,meix come cryin to me todae...haix...realli sorrie meixx...
wasnt dere when u were feelin down...me to blame...realli feel so bad...haix...sorrieee...
i don think i could interfere oso...n i guess...tellin him will jus make things worrse...
everythin gonna b orite...and nth worse will happen der...believe me...okay?=]
for me...i feel so weird...so strange...
i hav been askin myself these qns...
why?!
wad for?!
i jus felt lik so sour at many moments lorx...the feelin realli sux...
sth i m thinkin whether izzit worth it or?...
whether shld i hav done it...or why am i doing all these for?...
it realli sux...!i hate tat stupid feeling...and...
i don noe wad i can sae oso...jus so HELL...FREAK OUT at times...but jus try to control myself...
most things i kept to myself and i jus feel so pain...deep inside...
and...the feelin is nth better den penknife slowly slicing off my chest....
its jus lik the sourness n the sinkiing of my heart tat i feel so hopeless and helpless...
haix...doesnt matter at all to anione oso...wad can i do...
and the last thing i ever could sae is "wad more can i sae?!"
jus so fed up and...vexed...haix...don noe la...
*
wad to do bout all these things?...wad can i do?...whu gg to b dere to help me?...whu gg to put me up from when im falling...whu will give me a hand n risk his/her life or tryin to save me?whu will dig me up from the soil?...whu will?...whu gg to b dere for me?...i m worthless?...im i still part of them?...m i still someone important to them?...wad do they think of me?...i look lik i m someone strong outisde...but im soft inside?...is she gg to give up on me?...or is she jus sevrectly in love wif me?...i don noe and im jus so confused...do i realli luv her?...is the chemistry dere or is dere not any?...on the other part...i luv her so much...jus by lookin at her...i filled my hearts wif hopes again...she is lik the battery of my life...jus generally noeing her hav alred assured me tat she's the gal i wanted...and...thought she is attached...i blessed them of cox...to see her so happie and...yupp...i guess i hav alread gave up on her...but i still love her...i guess i nv got to win her heart...i hav sacrifice for her...but did she noe bout it?...haix...*
♥hanxiang
7/28/2006 07:29:00 PM
