Saturday, June 10, 2006
seeking attention?...acting to b so sad and pathetic?...trying to find someone to console u by acting poor thing and so sad and depressed?...
tats wad many ppl thinks...
aniwae...todae...a sux dae...a torturing dae...a suffering dae...simply...a BAD DAE!!!
it seems lik everything jus...don go the rite way...ALL THE TIME....!
haix...seriously...if u were to treat someone so gd and noeing the person for so sososososo long... and bcox of other factors...u were treated lik a idiot...how the hell will u feel?!!!
i guess...i jus felt totallly down and to the lowest point...it is jus a kind of feeling tat is real difficult to describe...u jus felt so...HURT...DISAPPOINTED......and jus SO SUX!...
the feeling:millions and millions of needles...one by one...slowly...peirce into me...tat is how TORTURING and pain i felt....
BUT in fact...wad can i do?...go to the person and sae..."u shld treat me this way and not tat way..."...."u hav to treat me gd bcox i noe u very well and for very long..."
IS TAT SO???!!!
TOTALLY NOT POSSIBLE RITE?!!!!
it is lik is suppose to b sth tat jus comes naturally and not tat i hav to go to the perosn and claim tat he/she suppose to treat me better or stuffs lik tat...haix...whywhywhy?!!!!!
it has been sux...on the surface...it looks lik he/she care so much and tat....haix...i don noe...tat is a reall confused feeling...
i admit tat...the feeling was kind of JEALOUS...cox...i was lik so left out...only got involved when he/she realli need me...so am i jus dere to b USED????!!!!!!!
haix...totallly depressed and realli realli sux...felt so lousy....=(
aniwae tomo camp le...don think will even enjoy any sec of it....i think...things gg to bcome worse and to the max...the feeling is AS GOOD AS DEAD...
and treating so many ppl good and nice and care...WAD THE HELL did i get?...i did it not for a SINGLE REASON!!!!!
BUT how was i den even been treated????!!!!
Quote:Even before the wound recover...it starts to bleed again...and dis time...even worse...the wound jus becomes deeper n i guess....nth can ever help UNLESS...haix=(*full of pain...disappointment...wounds all over...bleeding impulsively...
♥hanxiang
6/10/2006 10:38:00 PM
