Wednesday, June 07, 2006
todae...i made a wasted trip...n i took so much efforts...and...a "sorry"...is all i get and its not even verbally...i sometimes felt lik a real fool..but for the sake...i actually did...but...
mayb...tat is how much i cherish the frenship and so...i nv fail to do so...
all i noe is i m worse den anything and tat...from a great fren to a normal one...looks lik it is a great great differ...and...i don noe...jus so different and weird...making me so uneasy and thinking so much...i jus cant stop imagining...
haix...wad's more...?i even dream of it...every sec...i m thinking bout it...and thinking how bad the consequences and...wad i can do bout it...but simply...nth and totally no idea how to...
totally...helpless....
i jus felt so neglected suddenly...and so...lonely...so stress and so...
together wif my own problems...its getting worse...if this goes on...i jus gonna suffer and suffer...
and i don noe when will this end...
all i noe is...everythings seems great for him and...i guess i cant stop him or anithing...probably he found a better fren?...mayb he finds i no longer important...or even...?
u nv noe and i nv noe...haix...
put it in the nice way,he happy i would b happy too...
the not very nice way...he is happy...i am jus happy for him but myself...inside?...wad izzit...i cant put those in words...
dis is one long post...don guess anione would read it ba...haix...simply jus got so neglected and seems the whole world is ending ba...
i don expect alot...but i realli realli hope...the sec before i die...tat if i did anithing wrong...he would forgive me and once again...sees me as wad he usually sees me as...haix...tats all i hope and i wish upon a star...tat...even for the last sec...if he wish to...i would realli b glad...
* i don noe how long dis is g to last...and i reallli keep it to myself for a long time...and...
haix...end here ba...
quote:i have forgotten how to smile with happiness...To all bro,mei,fren:i wish and prayed for ur safety and that i would choose to be miserable as long as u stay happy and cheerful... *i never going to be happy again...it takes a long time to heal...*
♥hanxiang
6/07/2006 07:25:00 PM
todae...i made a wasted trip...n i took so much efforts...and...a "sorry"...is all i get and its not even verbally...i sometimes felt lik a real fool..but for the sake...i actually did...but...