i said something i shouldnt have,but that was exactly how i felt. i know you wont like the way i spoke,i know i was unreasonable. it was so unfair to you to say such a thing. i know i was really wrong,but i just feel like telling you everything. simply because i do bother,and i do care..
i felt bad and i really didnt mean it that way. that moment,i just felt i was a jerk. im never good enough for you,neither do i worth having you. there is definitely a reason for everything. i felt so useless,so lousy to be anyone. i didnt ask for any forgiveness,for i know i dont even deserve a chance.
probably i asked for too much,expected too much as well. i guess we should "appreciate the present,and not demanding for the future" sometimes,i just felt im worse than a loser,more than just useless. i can tell you just how much you meant to me,for im willing to do anything you name, just for you..
For now,i could even hardly face you.. im just really sorry.. sigh..i really tried very hard..
